Radio nursing

Good environment, good bosses and colleague but the job I dunno wat the hell I m doing. Passion wise....no passion at all.... sigh sigh sigh... now I know a job without passion will cease in just 2 weeks. The future road, no one knows....I really pray that I do not need to pay the 3k. Lord pls... learnt my lesson too...not to apply thru agency...just apply directly.

To leave or to stay

This will b the first time I gonna hand in my resignation....
bonus is coming
possibilty of a disease outbreak....
Some emotional attachment...sweet, sour, bitter and pain all in my mother's organization...
Being offered by the other organization to pay my notice period...
Office hours,
No more night shift
Pay increment
Trade off with....
Exposure to radiation...lets try thr dorsimeter if exposure is high...I guess I will leave too....
Longer distance of travelling....
Dunno y my parents seem to have a slience expectation for me....
Always wants me to stay in my mother's organization say wat career prospect good ah watsoever....
But do they even care about me? My happiness, emotional well being, health?? For 3 years how many times had I cried because of exhuastion...or emotional hurts...
Indeed, like wat the ang mok say...
Asian seldom focus on emotional well being which is extremely important!!!

Night shift

I dunno how to tell u
But I seriously hate night shift
Eat alone
Sleep for one whole day
Work like shit...
Feel like I gonna collapse at the end of the day....
It sucks....
Feel like a total loner...
Now its abit better
Cos at least I got mum and Jia xuan to accompany me at home....
I dun feel so lonely
I wonder many times did I made the wrong choice in 2010??

Life in isolation

Dunno how long I will b here but this is my diet for the rest of the time I m In here.... now resting....feel like I m facing all 4 walls will no one to talk to me wor

Post night shift syndrome

Urggghhh....I really hate post night shift syndrome...it's 1230am and I cant sleep at all... so frustrating... T.T

Somehow I m determined to change my job like pretty soon after bonus and led a more human being lifestyle.... wanna pick up piano again...my friends and I agreed that we both started to look frail after working here for like 2 years.... i am getting more forgetful like seriously. oh gosh.... great night shift though, get to work with my khakis. Just wonderful!!! Having and planning to leave just makes me feel nostalgic.

Dilemma

Feel like changing a work environment. However at the same time....I want my long awaited bonus and trauma course.....feel quite stupid to work so hard and leave without bonus...my heart tell me wat do you want leh?!?!?!
Heart: bonus + changed of environment.
Me: dun be greedy lah!!!
Heart: but I reallt want leh....
Just wondering if I can delay my resignation...???
Found a friendly recruiter to help mr look for job, her name is Jen. I can only say, she is diligent and awesome gal!!!

My niece at 10 month

This is my niece at 10 month. Isnt she adorable?

At 10 month, she's able to...
Stand by holding on to furniture
Shout lots of incomprehensive stuff
Look at the TV and should 'mummm, mummm'
Crawl into my room and messed up the entired place.
Look at the mirror and smile happily....
Eat porridge
Remove my spec
so happy to see her growth...she definitely bring lots of joy into the family:):) I will missed her when she moves out

Time with my love

This week was awesome!!! My boyfriend is so good to me:):) Even though, his exam is coming...he still spent time with me. He booked the amazing spiderman movie ticket for me!!! I loved the electricity guy, he is like so AMAZING he can electrified everything...but in the end he got overcharged by spidyman...spidy you the villian how can u do that to him?!?!

He also bought me chocolate and sunflower as I was feeling really depressed:) and brought me to eat korea BBQ... thank you and love you so much for spending time with me when I m feeling so lonely :)

My selfie at the tulipmania fair

Hihi! Went to the Tulipmania fair and it was awesome!!! As an ntuc member, i only need to pay $10.80 to enter flower dome. Love the fragrant in the air. Didnt know that there are so many kinds of tulips..so colourful!!!! Got windmill somemore. For a moment, i felt like i m in Holland:):) the one that I was most impressed with was the feathery tulip... seeing it first time in my life....

Went there alone and tot I should invest on a selfie stick. Lol!! But the people there was nice... they help to take photo for me. Awesome!!!

Jia Xuan's 1st month

Wow! Jia xuan's pre-birthday celebration (suppose to be on 24 July) was like a mega big event. My house was like so super congested sia till I can't really move at all. There are people from both my maternal and paternal sides...and my bro and sister in law's friend. It's like CNY. Quite fun though to be able to meet up with all of them. First time my house have buffet session.

Jia xuan seems to have gain much weight from the 2 weeks while she was away, So the gift from me to her is the baby gym, she seems to love it. Anyway now I will be seeing her everyday, Mum had sarcrifice herself to take care of her for the next 2 years. My mum is so noble:):)

Happy sunday

After church, Janna and Connie brought me to a cafe to lim kopi. The cafe is called " Letoile" situated at little india. As I went up the stairs to the 2nd floor of the cafe, I felt like I had stepped into my old house at dover cresent as it was filled with retro furnitures like those I saw in the late 80s, early 90s.....sewing machine...those with the leg pedal kind, wooden sofa, book shelf.... serious, we shouldn't had thrown away our furnitures last time..  drank ice mocha... it was yummilicious!!!

Next, we proceed to Samantha's Birthday party....Samantha, Kayla and Thaddeus kept running non stop around the room...competing with each other. They are like energizer, no matter how they run they never seems to be tired. Highlight of the day: Doraemon cake!!!!

End of the day: World war Z!!!! I just simply loves zombies.... the zombies in this show run really fast, those who r bitten transformed into zombies within like 12 seconds. Omg!!! Brad Pitt goos good!!

Changi Airport date night with my love

Friday night as usual, crowded everywhere...
Went to fetch my ah gong at Bedok...friday is always a long day for ah gong...he was tired and hungry....
so decided to go to Changi Airport to chilled out.
Indeed it was a good place to chill out...spacious, not as crowded as the shopping malls:):)
We went to a Penang resturant to eat eat...the food was like so-so but the ice kachang was a booboo....
Had great time chit chatting with my ah gong and hold hand walk ard. Heypi, heypi:):)

I miss my niece....

2 weeks no see. Really miss ur presence BB Jia Xuan. No BB for me to hug hug and play with. Haha! Heard that u drank too much milk milk,160ml in total. Ur mum was so anxious that she brought u to the emergency dept. Haha! U monster eater, give your mum a big shock. See u on Saturday to celebrate ur 1st month:):)

Happy Birthday to my Love (cont)

Haha! Kick started the day at River Safari!! My Panda da da Birthday boy woke up from a record breaking 13hours of sleep. He was super energetized that day. Bought a Panda rainbow cake for my ah gong!! Hightlight of the day was of course and definitely the PANDAS!!!!!  This time round we got to view the pandas till shiok shiok.. Jia jia was like super guai... sitting there and eating bamboo like 100% of the time. Hahaha! Very adorable!!! Kai Kai like Jia jia was also eating. Eat, eat and eat ah!!! I love the red pandas too!!!

After that we took a bus outside the Zoo straight to Orchard!!! And went to an anime event....actually thought that it was a theme cafe. LOL! But it's really fun!!!! Got Hello Kitty, Doraemon, One piece, Pikachu,  Japanese maid gal, Rilakuma and many dunno what character. Doraemon was the Emcee and the rest sang Japanese songs for us while we r eating. They even sing a Birthday day song fory boy boy. FUN!!!! Super Love the time we spent together:):):) My Ah gong must hug the pillow everyday to sleep kk.

Happy Birthday to my love

Happy Birthday to my pandaboyboy, playmate, soulmate, best friend, Best boyfriend forever and ever (BFFFNF), Mr Wong Weng Choy!!! he is a veri talented man...just look at his art piece. Veri impressive...

Had super lot of fun together on his birthday on 12th July 2013!!!

Went to the Premier movie theatre at Nex to watch 3D movie "Pacific Rim" after work....super shiok!!! Got adjustable arm chair, all day breakfast, blankets...etc...etc...press callbell and got people to serve us food!!!!

Then we went to a dessert shop and it was birthday present presentation time!!!! Hope my Ah gong like all the presents I had specially chosen for him..
This year's birthday present theme is "Ah gong's armour" :):)

OL life day 7

Very confused....
They r communicating through short forms most of the times....
Very new...
Dunno how to properly organized my work....to ensure I get everything done and that there are no gaps.
But I must say I got very good supervisor though she says she is "anal" about the format etc...but she is also very helpful.

A a treat from my colleague, super happy:) nice food really makes my day

Reflections

4 days orientation. Met some old friends, met some new friends.

Madness from the renioun with my good friends. 4 days later regain back my sanity.

From the faces of the fresh grads, I saw a shadow of myself 3 years old- innocence, optimist, cheerfulness, hopefulness,  enthusiastism, chiongster, everything seems rosy.

After 3 years, having experienced the rigid processes, problem in the workplace, got scolded for mistakes not made by me, kena tai chi from seniors and arrowed for jobs I dun like to do

1st year of work:
blur blur,
Managed 12 pts,
Plenty of orders of doctors,
served rich tai tai, starts to see the evilness of humankinds,
made million of mistakes,
become pessimistic,
common phrase " 世界是黑暗的" Thankful for ....
kind hearted Nem seniors (espcially Mae and the night seniors) who are constantly there to guide, warn and teach me.
They made life easier for me so that i dun need to learn things the hard way.
Good Teamwork,
Managers that dun blacklist me for stupid mistakes I made. One of them is sending diaposable knife for sterilisation, major mistake as the knife might hurt my fellow colleagues at the other end receiving it.
Absolutely stupid mistakes...

2nd year: bitterness, grumpy, teared after work, lost, tired of routines, lost of passion.
2.5-3 year: regain back my passion in dem.

I count myself luck,
Not much talent
But always got job offered at the right time.
Saw my friends, they looked exhuasted.
I understand how they feel
Many asked if there's anyway they can get into this program...
...

Missed clinical.
Missed the fun, thrills, friends, excitement, interaction with pt at Dem.
Dem, Tough place to work in, tiredness, fall sick easily, plenty of night shift, one lesser off day- yet still satisfied and love working there.

Tour around the campus,
Eye opener, bigger picture, holistic view.
Hospital got many stakeholder, complicated setting.
got to see different facilities, BMU, SOC,  business office, kitchen, MMD, MRO, linens, 4000, pharmacy, acedamia blah blah blah....
As a nurse, I m a end user to all of this facilties.....
Now, better understand....
All function uniquely yet all interlink....
Cant provide smooth journey for pt without any of this backend services...

After 3 years in the frontline service, I m now the 幕后工成. I hope I can make some contribution within this 2 years..that will benefit the pt and cause less frustrations to my fellow colleagues. This will b my attitude. 

Bye bye DEM

My last shift in fever area was busy but awesome, because I work with awesome and kind people: Tan TP (veri funny ah beng dr, saw the nonsense, "keng" cases and ask them "cs" ), Meiyin at triage (good at directing cases out of fever area), awesome in charge Taufiq and sweetie pie Nurul. Saw the first mes pt and isolated her. 

I m so gonna miss this place as I worked with one of the coolest brunch of people on earth. No matter how bad the situation might be or how packed dem is they still can be veri chill and I seldom hear them complain....the spirit put me to shame and teach me not to complain too much. the teamwork is awesome!!! All of u rockz whole time!!!

1 year of bitter, sweet, sour and spicy memories....been through thick and thin with my friends....I gonna miss them so much:):) take care everyone, Sa-u-na-ra!!! I might be back